My love lost romance

About the age of sixteen, I was hugely obsessed with this famous Korean actor named "Song Seung Hun". In most of his romantic roles, he is portrayed as the artistic, just lover which is amplified by his gorgeous looks. His love-frenzied character helps break the poor girl misery and take her in a love-filled journey; which make a great day-dream for fans during and after his hunky roles.

Currently, I'm not so much into star-crossed, daydreaming romance anymore. Time has progressed and the little teenage girl had moved on. I have moved on into a state of not wanting any romance at all.

Dealing in a romantic relationship, one must devote honesty and commitment. This is something I'm capable of, but I don't desire for any mate. An apparent notion, I should state, that is infused with a feeling from a place bellowing for freedom; the place is selfishness and surely it will lead me to the path of loneliness. I will accept this fate over the other fate for which is full of barren promises.

"For Beauty, For Fame" ~~ a candid remix artcle/essay o.o

 Admiration taken far can be deadly, poisonous to one's mind, causing one to do things that may be against their values. One example of this can be examine in the highly publicize disengagement of Crystal Harris to the ever prolific Playboy, Hugh Hefner. She didn't speak much about her disengagement, which caused the media to find other people, who can give them more information; this spiral of curiosity lead the media to spread false rumors about her.

 On Monday, Crystal came on the view to shed some light on her disengagement. She was seated in the middle of the group of woman who co-hosted the show. One of them, Joy Behar, was the first to ask a question that was related to a huge rumor, which was about Crystal Harris running off with the 90k ring and thus made her seemingly in it for the money. Crystal replied, "well, I was intrigued by the whole Playboy life style. And um growing up I'd look up Playboy magazines- and you know, I was insecure and so I thought, could I ever be that girl, could I ever be a playmate.".

That quote from her is a great indicator to what provoked her into marrying Hugh Hefner, which was mainly influence by her admiration for playboy. This admiration that was unfortunately taken far from rationality, made me think back to my youth years. When I was a young girl, I loved being admired and associated admiration to as being loved. I was admired mostly for my beauty. Everywhere I go, people would give me stickers or say I was really pretty. So, being admired for my beauty lead me to think that it was love. I soon wanted this admiration from my many boyfriends during my teen years. Little did I know, that what was consider beauty to them was something I consider "yuck".

 For sure, admiration changed for me as do for many young girls, who viewed admiration as to love. I adapted to this new admiration from my boyfriends and it ultimately made me do the "swung". I was now in a spot of even more confusion. The confusion of beauty, body, love, and respect. Maybe this little admiration that Crystal had as a little girl, from those pretty ladies in Playboy had lead her onto confusion as well.

 All in all, it seem like Playboy twisted beauty and fame up for her and probably for youths everywhere. Moreover, the fame and beauty in Playboy was done up as something prestigious- something to live up to.

This lead me to ponder on the fact of how beauty pull fame in this media frenzy society. I mean how did this worked so well? This equation "beauty to fame" worked with deception and truth; deception was used to twist the truth of beauty in the media, adding fame to make the deceptive beauty appear more true. What truth can young girls find, nowadays, when mostly everywhere they go is influenced by the media?

What's been happening..

This morning, I woke up hearing this sentence: "did you know that the snow pile over by sears haven't melt?" I popped my eyes open and was like "wow", mainly because we had like a four-day thunderstorm this past week and a tornado! After that brain teaser, I went downstairs, ate some ice cream, and then came on here.

p.s.
I'm in a rut

Dream Guy

     On his neck hung a skull necklace. His tall lean body wrapped in ripped dark jeans and a gloomy t-shirt. He walks in checker design slip-ons with a smile that lift out those round earrings on his ears. My dream guy is a rock-star. Rock-Star fashion is filled with dark colors, death, rim stones, spikes, and chains.

I'm a bit late for a valentine post nevertheless I hope you guys find love tonight!

The Pinky Diet Plan

     Okay, so I'm like 10 lbs too many.… 10 lbs over weight… Well, my doctor says that I weight normal for my height but he doesn't know the fat rolls on my tummy! I need to lose that fat. Nevertheless, exercising doesn't work for me because I get hungry afterwards, but then I figured out that I should snack like an hour or two hours before exercising to avoid eating after burning lol. I think I can lose 10lbs in two weeks, if I did these things: avoid fatty food and sugary snacks, eat 1 biotin pill ever day, drink at least five cup of water each day, and jogging for 30 minutes every day. Keep the following in mind:

• Eat the right amount of calories accordingly to your height/age. (You can calculate your BMR using this site, http://calcnexus.com/calorie-calculator.php)
• DO NOT progress losing more weight that would pull you below normal weight of your BMI. (Calculate your BMI on this site: http://www.nhlbisupport.com/bmi/
• then go check your ideal weight range at, http://calcnexus.com/ideal-weight-calculator.php)
• When losing weight fast, your body needs to adapt to the changes, which make you feel more hungry.
• 3,500 calories = 1 pound of body fat
• Biotin is a B vitamin supplement that helps your body burn calories basically (for more information of what biotin: http://www.raysahelian.com/biotin.html)

Extra~
Check your calorie burning ways at http://www.healthyweightforum.org/eng/calorie-calculator.asp
Cliff bar a good energy snack :D

Sappy Bloggers

     I was roaming through youtube and found a cool chick. The chick had
black hair, soft smooth voice, and neat makeup tutorial. I read through her youtube profile.. say she's into astrology, native American spirituality, and karma. Her profession has something to do with healing people or putting their life in prospective by contacting her client guardian angel.. Angel therapist is what she claims to be.
     I even hopped on her blog and read one recent article that was really long.
At first it sounded as if she was sick (i was really worried) but then it turn out that she just found out how important to eating healthy was. D<@ #$#@% this chick isn't so cool no more her blogging so frivolous-..And comon she have angelic and karma interest.. I don't know her personally but from the looks of it she seem like a comical lady or a demented lady. Whatever it is, she isn't genuine.
*unsub her* Her videos isn't cool anyways.

My fashion addiction

     There is always a style I stick to, no matter what the fashion trend
of the season dictates otherwise. Cliton and Kelly might even whisk me
away to the 360 degree mirror for that reason. Even so, my fashion addiction

isn't dull and I think it wouldn't get me in much trouble ^.^

- cocktail dress

- Leather Jacket

- Tote

-Wedge

Polychromatic Outbreak

Sugar- is all around me cooling the air and freezing my feet.

I need a little warmth- Socks! Is the answer.

Now, I can sit comfortably for a short time.

In this cold melancholy season, where colors are mostly gray;
One can find himself/herself in a rut.
Flip a coin and toss it away, you might
ask why I wrote that and I will tell you: I'm bored.
I do have my ways in finding inspiration from sources.
Hmmm. . . I find inspiration from things I think cool.
Cool in a way that is strange, that I find interesting to a point
that I could sublime my imagination into.
Here is a list of what inspires me (I hope you find inspiration from them too.)

- Dj Tiesto's songs
- Commericals
- Facebook
- Watching runways
- Being moody

The long run

Monday = Dreaded
Tuesday = Forgotten
Wednesday = Hope
Thursday = Marathon 
Friday = Freedon
Saturday =Perfection
Sunday = Recycle


     So, I woke up on Thursday feeling like I just got birthed.  
My eyes was in pain, stomach in cramp mode, and a mild fever.
I gave myself two hours to get use to the day, and 
somehow I felt better after watching the latest runway from Tokyo fashion t.v.
     That runway reminded me to share to you all, of what I liked
about Tokyo fashion. Well, the latest trend is a fox tail key chain. 
The key chain isn't my taste but I saw a fox tail behind a high heel, 
sometime ago. I tried to find a picture of it but I couldn't >~<!
Back to the main topic, so far, I like the gyaru style in Japan.

Makeup Rant #1

At first, the title of this article was "makeup rant" but
I added "#1" because I have a feeling that this
isn't going to be my last rant on makeup.
Cheap eyeshadow doesn't give much payoff,
pricy ones give too much payoff, and the
median ones are okay but limited in color selection.
I decided to go with the median one,
like covergirl. I like saving money
and I don't have much on me but
cheap makeup is a hassle filled
with tons of dabs that can cause
arthritis >.<
Another note...
Rumor has it there's this awesome
eyeshadow pallet you can get
that have like 44 colors o-o!
I heard tons of good reviews
from people who bought it and
professional makeup artist.
Haven't got it but planing on getting it
from this site: http://www.bhcosmetics.com/

The December Break

Woke up this morning, grab an oat meal cookie from the cookie jar-

feeling worn out and inspirationless. 

     When I started this blog, I had a bundle of passion;
I clung to these three ideas: fashion, beauty, and pink.
There were many of topics I could cover with those ideas,
and I did for a short period but during December I lost enthusiasm.
So, I went on a sugar-rush, learning about things that caught
my attention. The supply from the sugar-rush filled me
back with fashion and beauty. (what about pink?? pink lovin' 24/7 chick here)
     This sugarly supply lead back to fashion writing,
but a change in how this blog is being run!
The magazine narrating-style is dropped,
and inverted into a fashion blog running on my inputs.
I promise it won't get too hectic.
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